Change is hard.
Change is hard for everyone. Change is even hard for people who say they like change, whether or not they will admit it.
Before coming to college, I didn’t really believe this. It wasn’t until about the third month of school that it hit me that I would never play sports again on a competitive team. It wasn’t until Christmas break that I realized I would never stay in my childhood home for longer than a few months at a time again in my entire life. It wasn’t until several months after Christmas break that I realized I would never get the chance to compete in speech again, something that I had been very involved with in high school; that this year, someone besides myself would win the state championship in serious prose for the first time in three years. But for some reason, it didn’t really hit me that life had changed until one of my closest friends in high school sent me a picture from her graduation party. I was thousands of miles away on a May term trip to Europe and couldn’t be there for her party, and while I didn’t shed a tear at my own graduation, for some reason this made me cry.
It was then that I really realized that life would never be what it was, and the nostalgia of knowing I was growing up really got to me. Sitting in a cafe in Eisenach, I thought about all the things I would never experience again, and while it made me kind of sad, I also found it vaguely inspirational. While I wouldn’t be able to experience a number of things I had previously, I also had the chance to experience so much more in my future. I was sitting at a cafe in Eisenach because I was touring with my college band, something I would get to do for the next three years after that. I was in the band because I was at college and furthering my education, which would hopefully open up a variety of opportunities I wouldn’t have had the chance to experience otherwise. And while I couldn’t relive the past, I realized that I didn’t really want to. I had moved on to a point in my life that going back and doing the things I loved to do in high school wouldn’t be the same and wouldn’t give me as much enjoyment any more. I was different, and that was okay.
So while change is hard, its also transformative. It makes us unique and helps us grow, and for that reason, it’s essential to our future achievement and happiness.